Hey all,

I apologize that i haven't been here lately, but ive had alot on and at times it just hasn't been possible.

I was living at kings ripton court for a couple of weeks due to family situations, but i left there last monday into my new place. Its really good.

I hope to get online as much as i can.

Hope you're all okay

This isnt directed at anyone here. Sorry but it had to be said.

You know who you are, and i just can't cope with it anymore. I defended you when no one else would, i took your side, i remained your friend even though it hurt me. But you just hurt me time and time again.
I was your best friend and you hurt me, how do you expect me to be.
But NO MORE, i can't be friends with you, i thought mjaybe telling you how it was, you'd understand but you are just like the rest of them. I was the only person that gave you the time of day but now you've lost me.

FOREVER.

Goodbye!

You pieice of scum

HAPPY.

yep i said it, i am happy, very hppy infact.

I took my chocolate cake to the womens group, not mentioning i ate about 5 slices. Its my birthday in 2 days, so i can pick out if i want. I got there, and it was normal. Rebecca gave me some chocolate when she came in. I then cut everyone some cake, and some for myself of course. I got given a card, and some more chocolate and they gave me some flowers, will upload the photos of my flowers when i get my camera back, i accidently left it there.

I heard from RFET today, so thats cool. I am seeing them in 2 weeks, so cool.

So coolies.

Always

~K~

Yesterday i had this journal all planned out, all written and i honestly don't know what i said.

CBT went well, i actually really like who i have, i felt able to open up to a certain degree with her so that was good. I have to go back on 16th May at 9.30. She asked me to read through some stuff, and write a hour to hour diary of what i do and if i enjoy it.

Yesterday spent a little while talking to shes prety cool. Go check her out. She has awesome poetry too.

I went on a little bike ride, my brother didnt tell me the brakes werent working, i had to swerve to miss a car, but i survived.

I spent the day watching buffy, i know its kind of old now but i love it. Charmed i love too. I don't know what it is but its great.

I feel pretty good today, determined not to let anything spoil that.

I have confidence building today, so that should be good, the last time i went i was feeling so great. so today i want to be heard and stuff.

Always

~K~

I have CBT tommorow, someone told me they got sectioned because of it, and i am a little scared incase they do it to me, i know they probably wont. I'm happy being here, and not in some hospital. It should be ok. so wish me luck.

Not much else to update, i delted my photography and poetry from here, thinking of updating my galery with new stuff but not sure what yet.

My birthday is in like 9 days. I am so thrilled, going to try and get to spend it with someone, because i dont want this year to be the same. Been suicidal for the past few years on my birthday, so wish me luck.